I Call This Trauma by Lindsay Soberano-Wilson

I Call This Trauma By Lindsay Soberano-Wilson The trauma unfolds in between the folds of the tapestry tattooed in my living room of silence I howl, but nothing comes out until a new square weaves itself onto there as the old squares start to unravel into a loose spool of thread choking me asleep I somehow become emboldened in golden and begin to look — to actually study how the threads morph into knots and bows and loops and holes and knots and bows and loops and holes and knots and bows and loops and holes… --and forget me nots Sometimes you make a patchwork that you work on tirelessly and needlessly until the trauma unfolds in between the folds of the tapestry It’s arduous work carrying this thing around like an old wet blanket but I think I’m finally comprehending that it needs to be housed in a museum and framed and reframed and observed and studied and, well, displayed like an artifact It’s arduous work carrying this thing around like an old wet blanket but I think I’m finally comprehending that it needs to be housed in a museum and framed and reframed and observed and studied and, well, displayed like an artifact So that if and when I am forced to confront the lava erupting from the sleeper cell of a volcano I can Wear it, I can Speak it, I can Preserve it-- I can let it hit the air so that its power diminishes over me or perhaps it can be plastered into some sort of sculpture: a live, living vulture to be placed on a pedestal with the inscription-- “I survived.” Bio Lindsay Soberano-Wilson is a poet, teacher, and freelance writer who lives in Toronto, Ontario, with her husband and three sons. Her debut chapbook Casa de mi Corazón: A Travel Journal of Poetry & Memoir (Poetica) is coming soon. Her poems and articles have appeared in journals, anthologies, and magazines, such as Quills Erotic Canadian Poetry Magazine, Canadian Woman Studies Journal, Running with Scissors, Travel Thru History, Scary Mommy, Canadian Jewish News, Poetica Magazine and Fresh Voices 22. She holds a MA (English Literature) and a BEd from the University of Toronto, and a BA (Creative Writing and English Literature) from Concordia University. Follow her on Medium, Instagram, or Twitter @Poetry Matters to explore a myriad of topics such as motherhood, mental health, travel, education, and sex-positivity.