“The Palimpsest of Living in Your Childhood Home” by Caitlynn Cummings

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The Palimpsest of Living in Your Childhood Home

By Caitlynn Cummings

1.

the north yard with the blossomy mayday

I gaze upon through my bedroom window

Flonase hits punctuating my daydreams

of other worlds

โ€”Tolkein, Auel, Careyโ€”

boom box spilling โ€œBreatheโ€ across my double bed

faith my parents wonโ€™t hear

when my boyfriend cuts the motor

glides up the back lane

and sneaks through my casement

2.

the mayday is heavy with black knot

corndogs wrapped in marshmallows

forgotten, burnt to a crisp in the fire

the bedroom is empty

the house echoes

with my fatherโ€™s harrumphs

and the empty Stolis that clink

on his bedside table

3.

our landscaping efforts have finally migrated

to the fourth side of the house

the โ€œnorth yardโ€

the โ€œgarden we forget aboutโ€

the โ€œthicketโ€

now, a winding path through the unkillable meadow

of snow on the mountain

flecked with painted ferns and icy hostas

leads to the shady patio

where samaras make their way into our aperitivi

when the sunโ€™s too hot

the kids stand upon the diseased stump

of the mayday daddy felled

surveying the vast sweep of microclover

they sprinkled with their own hands

the greenest turf for tag, soccer balls,

lying down to watch cumulus canvas

bordered not by the buzzed cotoneaster hedge

but how far their imaginations reach

my sonโ€™s yard

he sees past his easel

through new double glazing

but the same rough opening

I fantasized about fleeing through

candy necklaces as sustenance

which I now try to soften

with leaf and petal

secateurs in a steady hand

artful pruning

keeping the overgrowth at bay

cultivating the calm

of a well-kept

childhood


Copyright ยฉ Caitlynn Cummings

Caitlynn Cummings helps travellers plan bespoke trips to Italy with her consultancy DOP Italian Travel and publishes her writing in places like CV2, New Writing Scotland, Italy Segreta, This Magazine, Alberta Views, ditch, and Cordite Poetry Review. Currently at work on a poetry collection about gardening and early motherhood, Caitlynn can be found weeding, writing, and raising the fifth generation on her Albertan family farm. Follow her exploits in sauerkraut and metaphor on Instagram @caitlynncummings.


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