Blaring “Fly Like A Bird” across the Yellowhead Highway by Jane Shi

Poem title: Blaring “Fly Like A Bird” across the Yellowhead Highway
Poet name: Jane Shi
Poem (note: poem text appears is visually laid in the shape of a circle): 
what were
								you doing		            when the world 
							dipped deep    & the mountain	          quivered
						like		  a lost pen			     beneath	  	         a desk
					so	unattended to		you felt her		           unearned collapse 
				tremor of elbow						             wide jab		         car doors
			 a canyon receipt	    that’s when you fell		  butterfly wind	 	      beating 
		  silver				Toyota		  run		    away
																		               into a highway
	     broken CD			dangling							 tagged along by	     the ankles

	trying to catch														  a fruit fly		          trap it

   with your bare	  hands													        first         forgetting of

buzzing						unaware								         you had ten toes   	     smother

 of curiosity					     you cut							              with your entire body
    someone else’s					 so six					            so small		        did not smell pity

	  musty fried rice karaoke					       apartment under-				    construction 
		   like all smotherings			    a part of you still			       inched

			  a little bird		   toward carbon		    monoxide smog	   horn announcement

				    notes		     you held up		 a clay bird	        you held up   little red flags 
						     said			       look look		    country
						  i’ve been good							       i’ve been so so good
							as if that’s all you gave		    as if you didn’t break it
									     with your
														 bare hands
End of poem.
Credits and bio: Copyright © Jane Shi
Jane Shi is a queer Chinese settler living on the occupied, stolen, and unceded territories of the xʷməθkʷəy̓əm (Musqueam), Skwxwú7mesh (Squamish), and səlil̓ilw̓ətaʔɬ (Tsleil-Waututh) nations. Her writing has appeared in the Disability Visibility Blog, Briarpatch Magazine, The Offing, and Queer Little Nightmares: An Anthology of Monstrous Fiction and Poetry (Arsenal Pulp Press), among others. She was shortlisted for The Malahat Review’s 2022 Open Season Award for Creative Non-Fiction. She is the winner of The Capilano Review’s 2022 In(ter)ventions in the Archive Contest and the author of the chapbook Leaving Chang’e on Read (Rahila’s Ghost Press, 2022). Find her on socials @pipagaopoetry.