On the Spring Equinox by Amanda Merpaw

Poet name: Amanda Merpaw Poem name: On the Spring Equinox Poem: I return at the thaw. First fog of ferry light. There’s always a boat, a body of water. Benediction  carries itself the same. Can you stumble on grace uninvited? Once, there was mud. We wore  matching boots. Not here, another lake, the other side. You burned coffee on the fire. The  mosquitoes stayed the night. What bends in the balsam stays buried. The flooding, last summer,  and two years before that, and me too, flooded. In August, at night, this clearing, that deer, I tell  you, he hovered. Levitated. Or it was me. I was drinking drunk or I wanted to be drunk or I  wanted to be impossible. I wanted to climb inside the hide of the deer. Me, in the ribs of him,  held, holding. The galaxy. The swallow. I looked them up, the antlers. I didn’t need to. The trees  are different on purpose. Yes, they are. Note the nervation of the leaves. It’s felt like March all  year and now it is. Regardless, the lake is here. Keep your canoe. I summon the idea of  swimming again. I told you, I talk water. I didn’t expect to be gone and I’m gone. I’m full of  moon. I’m full. Are you alive? I’m really asking. I should have been closer. I was close, but  closer. The deer. To know. It’s the hide, the humming. Today, it’s Sunday weather out. I wear the wrong coat. End of poem.  Credits and bio: Copyright © Amanda Merpaw Previously published in Put The Ghosts down Between Us (Chapbook, Anstruther Press, 2021) Amanda (she/her) is a poet, writer, editor, researcher, and educator. Her writing has appeared in Arc Poetry Magazine, CV2, Grain, Literary Review of Canada, The Maynard, Pathways, Prairie Fire, PRISM International, and Room. She was shortlisted for Arc Poetry Magazine’s 2022 Poem of the Year Contest. Her first chapbook, Put the Ghosts Down Between Us, was released in September 2021 by Anstruther Press and her debut poetry collection is forthcoming from Palimpsest Press in Spring 2024. She is currently a contributing editor at Arc Poetry Magazine and a member of the editorial board at Anstruther Press.