“18 October 2022 at 5:56 pm” by Alexis Renée Alderton

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18 October 2022 at 5:56 pm

By Alexis Renée Alderton

my grandmother died two saturdays ago

& i’m only finding out now

& i have blurry unset memories of how

her dhal & roti tasted; the way her

clothes & hands smelled; the exact glow &

ruddy orange of the chandelier in the

entryway; the sound of her creole; the gold

& bangles in her closet; but i do not have

enough to grieve.

instead, i’m left tilting my head, peering at the blue

sky; jets; the pavement; watching films

with the sound off; a bollywood actress

mouthing along to something that would

sound familiar if i could hear it but, nonetheless,

i wouldn’t know what it meant.


Copyright © Alexis Renée Alderton

Previously published in Two Times Removed Volume III (Bookworm Publishing, 2024).

Alexis Renée Alderton is a Canadian writer based in Oxfordshire. She holds a BA in English Language and Literature with a Concentration in Creative Writing. Her short story “Kala” was featured in Two Times Removed Volume III: An Anthology of Indo-Caribbean Futures (2024). In 2024, she was shortlisted for #Merky Books New Writers’ Prize. Alexis lives with her partner and their dog, Pyjamas. Together, they enjoy long walks and cozy afternoons.


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